Broken music

I start to play my instrument but something isn’t right…the instrument is fine, I’m playing it well and the musical score I’m following is perfectly clear. It is something else that has gone wrong: the music itself is broken; in the space between instrument and listener the sound has become scrambled no matter how well I play.

As my mind plays the music of my conscious will, my body no longer listens or dances to the sound. The space between my mind and body, the means of translating mind into bodily action, the reverberating air itself has become corrupted, thick and heavy because of Parkinson’s.